Sunday, August 21, 2011

Back When it Started

I need to lose weight. Part 1: It is Hard

Yes, I am owning up to it. When I started this blog, I thought I was done losing and ready to start living. But a little over a year later, still running and weight loss maintained but I feel unhappier than ever with my body.

So, no. I am not obese or overweight. I am vain.

Here are few other things I know about myself that make it difficult for me to lose poundage:

1. I LOVE food. My quality of life revolves around what I am eating that day and how good it is. I very rarely eat for sustenance, I eat for pleasure. I make no qualms about it. I love food, and I have no intention of changing that.
2. I have zero self control. While I fully believe one can lose weight without denying oneself of favorites, I don't know how to say no to even things that I don't like. I know I can enjoy the things I love while losing, but I don't know how to say no to well...anything. Which leads to my next point...
3. My stomach never sends me signals that I am way full. I can eat and eat never feel sick. I can feel heavy, but I don't know what the nasty over eating feeling is, because my brain and belly can just bypass that.
4. When I am busy, exercise is the first thing out the window.

5. The best time if day for me to schedule exercise is first thing in the morning.

6. I MEGALOATHE waking up early.

7. I am addicted to sugar. I have two drawers full of candy at work. Once I tried to give up candy for a week and on the third day I cried.
8. Logan loves all thing processed, and can eat them until he is blue in the face. So my cubbard always is stocked with oatmeal cream pies, chips, oreos and the like.

9. The only real form of exercise I enjoy is running, and I fear my body is beyond use to it.

10. I am scale obsessed. When I commit to losing, I weigh myself far too frequently and I live and die but the fluctuation.

Ok. Now that the excuses are out of the way. I am ready for this.

I don't have a lofty goal, just 10 pounds or fit back into my size 4 pants. Whatever comes first, and then I will reassess my feelings.

This concludes Part 1, stay tuned for Part 2: How I am going to do this!

Are you currently working on any goals?
What kind of things are in your way?


Kandyce said...

I feel your pain... Just last week I gave in and started going to meetings again. I did horrible because of the random TOM cravings and although I'm not fearing the scale tonight I just have to live up to it knowing I can do much better, and this is just a slip up that everyone has. I too, eat for pleasure. I can eat lots and lots and never feel sick sometimes I just feel like a bottomless pit.

I'm currently working on losing these last 15-20lbs until i make goal and hit lifetime.

Holly @ The Runny Egg said...

As far as your body getting used to running -- I have to say that I've noticed big changes in my body once I started strength training more. I don't always like it, but I like the results. That has been the goal I've been working on lately.

You know what to do but now you just need to do it. That's the hardest part.

Manda said...

I have 12 pounds to my goal weight - and they will be harder than the 60 I have already lost when I started this I CAN BE IN CONTORL OF MY FAT BUTT thing YEARS ago. But I tend to go to extremes, and any type of break in that regiment(small or otherwise) is deemed total loss of self control and I relabel myself FAT and GROSS. So I guess it comes down to me and not allowing myself some space - then when I have used that space up - calmly get back on the wagon wihtout destroying all the progress I have made.

Paul said...

Currently just working towards maintaining my weight through a whole lot of running. Look out for the half marathon in October! I'll be the amateur, sweaty guy crossing the finish line and promptly taking an epic nap in the grass.

The only thing in my way is the fact that I too simply love food. Love it. Love. It. So I have to continuously make a conscious effort at each and every meal (and in between) to eat slowly, eat just the right amount and don't overdo it. When I'm eating food that I've prepared, it's easy because I use a scale to weigh out my servings. When I'm eating out at a restaurant, it's not quite that simple so I usually have to order my meal and order a to-go box at the same time so that I can immediately put half the meal in a to-go box as soon as it comes. This is what works for me, and it's become habit.